16/12/2022 Update

Mom Carla ~

Yeah, me again. 8 DAYS TO GO! Markus is doing great and I'm trying really hard to believe he will be cured. His skin has some scar tissue or thickening on the left side and it's getting harder to avoid it. But I tell him that we're almost done. Please let me not be lying to him!

My mother is home but the news is not good. She had a myocardial infarction (Widowmaker). Her heart is dying. She's not a good surgical candidate because of multiple reasons and there's no medication to help her except nitro pills. She is, in effect, terminal. But as of today she feels better and is in good spirits. We can only take this day by day. My brother and I have been expecting a bad diagnosis for a while now but it just got real.

A week from today Markus will have labs done. All I want is to be done with treatment, have a perfect observation period, and keep my mother as long as possible. This. Year. Has. SUCKED! And I deserve a break. I'm tired. I gave up everything to care for unwanted cats. I ask for nothing from anyone for myself. I try to be the best person I can be but I'm feeling like the universe hates me. I just need something good to happen.

Sorry to cry. There's been so much pain and frustration. I really need Markus to be cured. And I need my mom a little longer.